Well it’s been a rough couple of weeks in the “back on track” department. I haven’t exactly been eating on plan and have been slacking big-time with my workouts. But today, something happened that has me re-motivated and ready to get back on track, again.
Before I tell you what happened today, let me take you back to a day last summer when I experienced a pretty big wake-up call. My husband and I were on our annual trip to Toronto to celebrate our wedding anniversary. Our hotel was located about a 20-30- minute walk from the Rogers Centre where we were going to see our favourite team, the Toronto Blue Jays. Upon arrival at the hotel, we were notified that the elevators were broken and we’d have to carry our luggage up several flights of steep stairs. This task was so difficult for me (because I had allowed myself to get so incredibly out of shape) that my husband ended up having to carry all of our luggage, while I still struggled to make it up the stairs. After that fiasco, we set out on foot to head to the Blue Jays game. Well it was a 40-degree day admist the concrete jungle of Toronto where the humidity rises to well above the actual temperature. In the air-conditioned comfort of our hotel room, I had foolishly chosen to wear dark denim capris, sandals, and my Jays jersey (made from extremely heavy, non-breathable material!) Let me get to the point, and say that that walk was torture. I started sweating immediately upon stepping foot outside. I could feel sweat dripping from everywhere – making my hairline wet, rolling down my back, and soaking my clothes. I felt terrible. I hate being hot and throughout that entire walk I was so miserable. Once we arrived, I made my husband force his way through the packed Jays shop in hopes of finding a lightweight tank I could fit into. Unfortunately the crowds inside made my condition even more unbearable and we finally opted to just find our seats, which thankfully, were in the shade.
The whole point of this is to say that this experience was a major wake-up call for me. Summers are hard when you are overweight and out of shape. Sweating from everywhere makes you feel gross (and you’re probably already struggling with self-acceptance, as I was) and the heat caused by excess body fat, simply makes you miserable. I realized then that had I not let myself get so out of shape both climbing the stairs at the hotel, and walking on a hot summer day, would not have been such miserable tasks. This revelation, of course, just made me feel more miserable as I began wallowing in frustration and disappointment.
So what does all this have to do with today? So far it’s been a decent spring. We’ve had plenty of 20-degree days where it feels amazing to be outside and it makes me feel excited for summer. But what day did my husband and I choose to leave all of our outside jobs to? The hottest day of the spring so far. Today it was 30-degrees and just doing the simplest job (ie. Washing patio furniture) was completely exhausting. The heat felt unbearable and I wanted nothing more to escape it. This was frustrating because I had intended to get a whole lot of work done outside today (our yard always needs it badly after a long winter) but I just couldn’t take the heat. Once again, I came to realize that if I wasn’t so overweight and was eating better and working out more regularly, these sort of tasks probably wouldn’t be so arduous.
But instead of being angry with myself this time (which I am trying hard not to do – although it isn’t easy), I am trying to take this reminder of that terrible day last summer and let it be my motivation. I am tired of being so miserably hot and out of shape in the summer. I am tired of not having enough energy and suffering headaches due to bad eating habits.
As of today, our annual Toronto trip is about 10 weeks away. That’s 10 weeks to change my diet and get back to working out. It’s only been three weeks since I fell off track of my latest attempt and I am determined not to let these three weeks off the wagon become three months. I understand that I won’t always be “perfect”, but I also have to realize when something needs to be done, and do something about it.
So, I’m starting with soccer practice tonight. It’s still extremely hot out and I haven’t played in several years, so I am fully expecting this practice to be brutal. But I am going to honour where my body is at today, and I am going to push it just a little past where it comfortably wants to go. That, and I am going to drink lots, and lots, and lots of water. Wish me luck, I am certainly going to need it!