First of all, let me say that I can’t believe I only have ten days left to complete my 30-day program!  When I started I wasn’t really sure if I’d be able to stick with it, but now twenty days in, I know with confidence that I will have no problem finishing!  For those of you who have been following you know the last few weeks haven’t been “perfect” but I have made a lot of changes to my diet, have tracked every single day in my food journal, and most importantly, have made conscious and mindful decisions about what I am going to eat (rather than just eating mindlessly as I did for so long!)

All that being said, I have to be honest and admit that I had another slip-up last night.  After I finished my blog entry for the day, I was feeling hungry and wanted a snack.  When I looked in the cupboard to see what I could have, I spotted the nearly-empty bag of Miss Vickies Salt and Vinegar chips my daughter had left there over the weekend.  I couldn’t resist, I ate them.  I just wanted to eat something junky so badly! I felt slightly guilty afterwards but man, those chips were good.  I estimated the chips to be about 7 points (there really weren’t a lot left) which put me at 40 total for the day.  Ugh.

Anyway, in addition to that, today is one of those days where I am feeling a little resentful and bitter that it takes so much work on my part to lose weight.  This a feeling I experience often when I’m trying to eat healthy and stay committed to my workouts.  I normally try not to compare myself to others but at times I just can’t help but wish I could be one of those people who can eat whatever they want and still maintain a healthy weight.  I know, I know, just because some of these people are thin does not necessarily mean they are “healthy”, but I still really wish I could eat a little less healthfully and stay thin.  I wish I could eat things like pizza, bread, desserts, and chips and not get fat.  But my unfortunate reality is that I can have those things – it just has to be in really, really limited ways.  Sigh.  I have to accept that my genetic makeup is prone to carrying extra fat and that if I don’t want to be overweight, it will require hard work (at least  until I get some healthy habits established, then hopefully it will at least get slightly easier!)  But that doesn’t mean I won’t have days where I just resent that fact.  A day like today for instance.

Anyway, that little rant is over (although if you can relate it’d be great to hear from you in the comments!  I am sure I am not the only person who has ever wished they could eat anything and stay skinny!). Here’s how Day 20 (wow!) has gone so far:

Breakfast:  I slept in this morning and didn’t feel that hungry when I woke up so I lounged around for about an hour before I made my fried egg, turkey bacon, and sweet potatoes for breakfast.  The weird part is that I actually felt more hungry after I ate (really have no idea why this would be!)  Since I was already at 9 points (which is pretty high for breakfast), I decided to just drink some water and see if I could wait it out a bit before eating anything else.

Workout 1:  To distract myself from wanting to eat, I decided to head out for a walk with my dog before the rain rolled in.  We went to our favourite walking route – a 2.5 km trail around a little lake just a five -minute drive from my house.  On the drive over, I was feeling really sluggish and cranky.  Despite having protein and carbs at breakfast, I will still feeling a little hangry (hungry + angry = hangry).  I didn’t want to go for a walk and only went because I knew it would be good for me.  Thankfully, by the time I made it to the lake and got going I felt quite a bit better. Although it was pretty humid there was a nice breeze and getting out to walk felt good again after not having done it for a few days.

Snack:  When I got home about 40 minutes later, I was craving watermelon really bad (probably a tad dehydrated after my walk) so I ate 2 huge chunks of it and then chugged some cold water.  I am super picky when it comes to watermelon (it has to be sweet enough, crisp enough, and cold enough!) but I have discovered recently that the mini watermelons are usually much sweeter and juicier than the large ones! I usually buy one a week and cut it into 4-5 chunks.  It’s such a great snack because all fruits are 0 points on Weight Watchers!

Lunch:  After having the watermelon, I didn’t feel hungry anymore so I was able to get a few things done around the house before lunch.  I even started planning and prepping for school! (Mostly just organizing my computer files, updating my class lists, and working on my timetable but still, I’m a geek, and it was loads of fun!) After driving my daughter to work, I was getting pretty hungry so I warmed up a leftover grilled turkey burger, sautéed my usual vegetables and sprinkled them with feta cheese for an easy, 3-point lunch!    Not too long after I ate lunch, I was craving something cold and chocolate so I had 1/2 cup chocolate frozen yogurt.

After lunch, I continued working on my school stuff.  By late afternoon, I had a slight headache so I decided to make a coffee since I hadn’t had one yet today.  I used my usual 4 tbsp of French-Vanilla cream and sipped my coffee while I finished organizing my files.

Dinner:  At lunch time, I had put a whole chicken in the crockpot (I buy the small ones at Walmart – they can feed about 3-4 people). I put about an inch of chicken broth in the bottom of the pot and cooked it on low all day for a nice, juicy chicken for dinner!  Before removing it, I sprinkled it with some Montreal Chicken Spice (which I had forgotten to do earlier).  On the side, I made my version of a Taco salad – mixed greens, romaine lettuce, green onions, red/yellow/green peppers, a bit of shredded cheddar cheese, light Italian dressing, and broken up Southwestern tortilla strips (I found them near the salad dressing with other “salad toppers” and they add the perfect crunch and flavour to my salad!)  My son loves chicken legs and wings so it works out perfectly since I prefer the breast (also I remove the skin before eating it).  I estimated my dinner to be about 7 WW points.

It’s now late evening and I am starting to get pretty hungry again.  I am thinking I will have some almonds and vanilla yogurt for a snack.  I don’t have much planned for the rest of my evening except watching the Jays game, checking out social media, and reading (currently: Wild by Nature by Sarah Marquis).  After my snack, I will be at a total of 31 points, with 3 earned activity points, which leaves me at 28 total for the day.  Tomorrow is my Weight Watchers meeting and weigh-in!  Fingers crossed!

20 days down, 10 to go!