In a follow-up to the post I wrote yesterday about my new-found passion for health and wellness, I wanted to share with you something I have been experiencing for the last week or so.
Two weeks ago, I decided to fully jump back on the “eating right and exercising” bandwagon (yep, story of my life!) I am kind of following the 21 Day Fix program, although I am not using the coloured containers. I am using the food lists as guides and trying to reduce the amount of wheat, dairy, sugar, unhealthy fats, and processed foods I am eating. I am doing the 21 Day Fix workouts although the program suggests you work out every day, and I have admittedly skipped a day here or there.
The first week was fantastic. My motivation was high, I was eager to learn, and I jumped in with both feet. I did meal prep, journalled all my meals, and even tried to make the best choices when I was out of town for a 3-day work conference. But here we are at the end of Week 2 and wow, it’s been tough.
Like so many others in today’s society, I have a major sugar addiction. If it’s sweet, I love it. If it’s white and carb-y, I love it. For months, I subsisted on a diet of pizza, bagels, pasta, and fries. Yum. But the entire time I was devouring those delicious foods, I knew that they were not only wreaking havoc on my physical body, but on my health overall.
It’s been brought to my attention lately just how badly unhealthy foods can affect us. I have started learning and doing some research about holistic nutrition and when I heard that unhealthy foods can also cause mental health problems, mood swings, and skin problems (just a few examples), it was like a light bulb clicked.
For months, I struggled with depression, lack of motivation, extreme fatigue, and just overall feeling terrible. My colitis has flared up leaving my stomach bloated and gassy and causing frequent trips to the bathroom. I am so fed up. Now I am finally starting to understand that my food choices directly affect everything related to my health – whether it be physical health, mental health, emotional health, or spiritual health.
So all the more reason, to get educated and to try to make some serious changes in my life. As previously mentioned the first week was pretty easy. I was highly motivated and eager to get started. But this past week, has been a little bit like a drug addict coming off drugs.
First of all, the cravings I’ve had for carbs and sugar have been mad crazy, especially in the evening. When the day’s work is done, and I finally sit down to relax, the thought of anything carb-y consumes me – PB & J sandwiches…. big ol’ bag of chips…. pudding cups…. ice cream…. let’s be honest, anything.
On top of that, I have been experiencing crazy mood swing, most of which have made me irritable, resentful, sad, and just downright, miserable. My brain has been screaming at me, angry with me for not feeding it the junk I normally feed it. I get mad and ask myself why this has to be so hard? Maybe I should just give up? I could go grab a bowl of sugary cereal right now. Screw it! I think. I feel down in the dumps, frustrated, and sad. A couple of times this weekend I have burst into tears for no apparent reason except that I feel like total and utter crap. Thank goodness, my sweet and supportive husband has been by my side to talk me through it and to encourage me along. Because of him, and because of the inkling of determination that still exists inside of me, I am thrilled to say I’ve mostly overcome these tough battles.
The good news is that I am learning. I know recognize that these physical cravings and mood swings (oh and the raging headache I had last night) are my brain’s way of trying to trick me into feeding it the crap it so desperately wants. And my logic tells me that if I just keep fighting and pushing past it, eventually I will overcome this hurdle and come out stronger on the other side.
So now I am focussed on one day at a time. I am going to continue to educate myself about what fuels and energizes my body from the inside out, and what turns it into a sugar-addicted, miserable monster. I know it won’t be easy, but at least my determination is still high.